Author: Matt

I'm a Christian, a physicist, a worshipper, a gamer, a husband and a father.
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posting

jo’s moaning that i don’t post enough, so here i am. i don’t know what she means, i posted less than a week ago! some of us have work to do… honest.

errr…. cheese.

incidentally, we were painting our new spare bedroom (that is, my sister and brother-in law were painting and i was supervising), and we noticed a llama on the wall. they get everywhere, you know. it’s amazing how many llamas we’ve bumped into since moving to woking. must be the beast to be around here. now that the paint has dried, the llama has faded away, sadly, but he’ll always have a place in our hearts.

in geeky news, i’ve nicked an old computer from work and i’ve put linux on it. i’ve always had a vague fascination with linux, and it seems to be good for a web server, so when we get into our new house i think i’ll set it up and put websites on it and stuff. now i have a linux machine for messing about with, a pc for playing games on, and a mac for actually using as a computer. mmm, geeky.

happy now jo? what does “exanimate” mean anyway?

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apathy

yesterday our small group did a bible study about apathy.

it was based on the parable of the good samaritan, which i’ve never really thought of about apathy, i always thought the priest and levite walked by on the other side because they were afraid of the robbers, but it hit me that apathy is simply not caring enough to overcome whatever holds you back. it may be fear, busyness or indifference, but if you truly cared enough you would do something to help. that is apathy—letting anything stop you from acting when you know you should.

so, you people that read this journal, it’s your job to make sure i do something about it. our small group want to run a project for the needy people of woking. we don’t know who they are or what they want, but we will find out and do it! please don’t let anything get in the way, don’t let apathy overcome me, because i believe that with God’s help i can overcome apathy.

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true riches

just been reading matthew 19 and 20 about true riches and finding it really hard!

matthew 19 is talking about how difficult it is for rich people to get into heaven, and to store up true riches in heaven. now i understand all this, and it even makes sense to me, but it’s really hard to reconcile with living in “the west”. i really enjoy having nice things, and i try to be sensible and only buy what i need. but this is hard at present as we’ve just bought a new house and need some stuff to put in it. to be honest, we don’t need to buy a dual-fuel oven, we could get a cheaper one. and do we need a coffee table when we’ve already got a cardboard box? could i spend my money on the kingdom instead?

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tedium

so i’ve succumbed to sneaking entries into my fledgling journal at work… the problem is, you work really hard all day, then finish something big at 5.05pm. so, you look at your “to do” list and realise that starting anything else now is a complete waste of time, i mean, there’s only 25 minutes left until hometime and at least the last ten of those need to be used for glancing surreptitously at the clock and making your computer shut down really slowly, and the customers aren’t that nice anyway so why should i rush to get anything done?

so here i am with nothing much to do and a journal to pad out. it’s funny, i never really have anything to write or say, but it doesn’t really matter because nobody really reads it anyway, and it’s just a way of sorting out your brain. and my brain needs a lot of sorting out. not because it’s particularly large, it’s just a mess, like the inside of my pc.

on that note, let’s trigger a “friendly discussion” on macs and pcs. i’m at work, but i’m actually typing this on a remote desktop to my mac at home. why? mainly because i can, i guess. and it looks prettier, and i like checking up on my mac to see if it’s ok. i really want to get a mac at work, but there is absolutely no reason to, because i’d have to run windows on it and you can get a dell to do that at a hundreth of the price. poo. my reason is that it looks prettier and i could use it at home too, but my boss doesn’t really like that reason. i tried to convince him that it would be useful to have a mac in the office for testing software on different platforms, but seeing as we already know there’s absolutely no way our software would work on a mac, that didn’t wash either.

oops, got distracted—someone wanted me to do work! well, i’m now at home with my beautiful wife, so i’d better sign off.

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life or death

so i’ve finally come to it, my first life or death situation. scary!

and i really don’t know how to get out of it. i don’t seem to have the skills to survive.

those pesky sandpeople. i’ve made my way into their base and they won’t let me out. when i go through the tunnel, my sandperson disguise disappears and i have to fight againts five scary sandpeople, and worse, i have to do it all in my underwear.

bummer.

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he will never leave you nor forsake you

God’s been really good to me today. i’m still struggling, and i don’t feel as close to him as i want to, but he’s been revealing things to me and helping me. don’t have much time, but just wanted to give him a bit of glory after being discontent last night!

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where is God when you need him?

so this is a live journal. or a life journal. or a journal of life.

seems strange to be sharing thoughts with the world. i guess i’ll get used to it. if anyone reads it, let me know!

been struggling today. trying to prepare for worship on sunday but can’t feel where God wants me to go. i think i’ve been rubbish at keeping in touch, with God as much if not more than anyone else. and when i don’t keep the lines of communication open, it’s hard to hear what he’s saying.

i get flashes—i’m meant to be doing something… we must go—i know that much but how? it needs to be God breaking through into our lives, we can’t go without him. maybe it’s not about how we go but how we live when we get there. or when we’re here. joseph didn’t “go” to egypt, but God used him there. maybe it’s about opening eyes, ears and hearts. maybe that’s where we need to come from?

still working on it.