howdy geezas.
i’m feeling a little rubbish. i’ve not allowed God to have a very big part in my life recently. been a bit lazy, got out of routine. now i’ve completed knights of the old republic, i’ve become less computer-obsessed, and remembered what i used to fill my time with… i led worship for some yoovs on suday and it was really exciting. it challenged me. i need to find the excitement i had while at uni. i don’t know if it’s because i’m fatter, but i seem to go slower at everything! probably because of working 9 til 5 as well. i really miss the freedom of uni, being able to arrange my time how i want. being able to just stop and follow where God might want me to go, because i have a responsibility to my wife and my job.
maybe it’s time to start thinking about christian jobs. when are we going to china? should we be preparing for it now, or soon? i know that i’m committed to my job for a few years yet, but i don’t want to get complacent where i am now. i want that passion, that sense of adventure. i’m reading a really corny american book called “wild at heart”: i-ve not got very far, but the basic idea is all men yearn for adventure. i think this is too much of a generalisation, but i really think it should be applied to our christian lives. hopefully the writer will stop talking about hunting elk and start talking about how to seek Go’s heart. i guess that’s the sense i want to get back. there’s no greater adventure than being in God’s will. he’ll stretch you more than you can imagine! even if i’m living in woking, God can still make my life very exciting if i seek after his heart.
we got a bit of a sense of this when we had the small group meeting about apathy. the scary and ironic thing is that we’ve not done anything about it! i did some research and got some contacts, but got swept away into doing something much more dull. i want to make a commitment to pray every day for God to chuck an adventure each day!