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sense of adventure

howdy geezas.

i’m feeling a little rubbish. i’ve not allowed God to have a very big part in my life recently. been a bit lazy, got out of routine. now i’ve completed knights of the old republic, i’ve become less computer-obsessed, and remembered what i used to fill my time with… i led worship for some yoovs on suday and it was really exciting. it challenged me. i need to find the excitement i had while at uni. i don’t know if it’s because i’m fatter, but i seem to go slower at everything! probably because of working 9 til 5 as well. i really miss the freedom of uni, being able to arrange my time how i want. being able to just stop and follow where God might want me to go, because i have a responsibility to my wife and my job.

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apathy

yesterday our small group did a bible study about apathy.

it was based on the parable of the good samaritan, which i’ve never really thought of about apathy, i always thought the priest and levite walked by on the other side because they were afraid of the robbers, but it hit me that apathy is simply not caring enough to overcome whatever holds you back. it may be fear, busyness or indifference, but if you truly cared enough you would do something to help. that is apathy—letting anything stop you from acting when you know you should.

so, you people that read this journal, it’s your job to make sure i do something about it. our small group want to run a project for the needy people of woking. we don’t know who they are or what they want, but we will find out and do it! please don’t let anything get in the way, don’t let apathy overcome me, because i believe that with God’s help i can overcome apathy.

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true riches

just been reading matthew 19 and 20 about true riches and finding it really hard!

matthew 19 is talking about how difficult it is for rich people to get into heaven, and to store up true riches in heaven. now i understand all this, and it even makes sense to me, but it’s really hard to reconcile with living in “the west”. i really enjoy having nice things, and i try to be sensible and only buy what i need. but this is hard at present as we’ve just bought a new house and need some stuff to put in it. to be honest, we don’t need to buy a dual-fuel oven, we could get a cheaper one. and do we need a coffee table when we’ve already got a cardboard box? could i spend my money on the kingdom instead?

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he will never leave you nor forsake you

God’s been really good to me today. i’m still struggling, and i don’t feel as close to him as i want to, but he’s been revealing things to me and helping me. don’t have much time, but just wanted to give him a bit of glory after being discontent last night!

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where is God when you need him?

so this is a live journal. or a life journal. or a journal of life.

seems strange to be sharing thoughts with the world. i guess i’ll get used to it. if anyone reads it, let me know!

been struggling today. trying to prepare for worship on sunday but can’t feel where God wants me to go. i think i’ve been rubbish at keeping in touch, with God as much if not more than anyone else. and when i don’t keep the lines of communication open, it’s hard to hear what he’s saying.

i get flashes—i’m meant to be doing something… we must go—i know that much but how? it needs to be God breaking through into our lives, we can’t go without him. maybe it’s not about how we go but how we live when we get there. or when we’re here. joseph didn’t “go” to egypt, but God used him there. maybe it’s about opening eyes, ears and hearts. maybe that’s where we need to come from?

still working on it.